Lately, keepers have been thinking a lot about the people who have always filled our lives. The truth is that ours has always been a very small world which consisted–almost completely–of family members. Grandparents–parents–siblings–external children and our JM have always been the major part of our lives. Other relationships never seemed to really come about for keepers. In childhood, keepers never really had playmates because our job was to tend to our dying Nana which meant we lived in isolation most of the time. Even as adults, keepers have never even held a real job which means we never had the experience of relating to coworkers the way most people do. So, those who have always been our role models are those who follow our blood line in some way.

Keepers parents were people who always thought they had all the answers and there was no need for them to be open to learning new things. Our siblings are much the same way–so full of themselves that each one is all knowing. And our external have followed much the same path. So much so, that keepers honestly believed that we would age believing much as those around us always have. We would grow older just simply knowing we already had all the answers and that our learning on this earth was completed long ago. After all, our schooling was done long ago and our system has often found ways to survive the unsurvivable so, somehow, we must have gained all the knowledge and wisdom that our predecessors were so sure was theirs from the beginning.

So, now we find ourselves running a ministry known as KEEPERSKORNER. We are often referred to as “the senior multiple” on the blogging circuit which tells us, quite clearly, that age has set in our system and that we should know all that life has to teach. And our truth is that keepers look inward at how far we have come and how much we are able to do in today (that we were never able to do before) and keepers all know that our system of alters is far from stupid–which, actually, makes us feel very good because that is brand new concept which puts a whole new spin on each day that we live on this earth.

But, the basic premise of keeper’s lives in today is that we really know so very little about life and all it entails. Even now, at nearly 60 years old, keepers are spending our time learning new ways of being and learning new truths about this life we are living.. We often find ourselves amazed at how very little we do know and, at times, we feel very overwhelmed at all the learning we have left to do. We find ourselves feeling anxious and excited because we want to learn it all before keepers leave this earth. Somehow, we know that is not possible but the desire to keep learning and discovering new truths has become one of the propelling forces behind keepers will to live.

Even if keepers have a great deal to learn about life outside of this one body, it seems we should have learned all there is to know about within the confines within the world of keepers. But even that is not true because  our own personal reality is constantly changing and with each painstaking step we take in the evolution of our minds, keepers discover that we have far more to learn about ourselves that one would ever think possible at this body’s ripe old age. Still, it holds true that keepers remain the true expert on being keepers even with so many gaps in our knowledge–which raises the question of how keepers can expect anyone else to really “get” being keepers when we are still on this quest of learning who and what keepers are all about.

In terms of being keepers, we have a list of things that we are wanting so much to learn or change about ourselves. Our ‘To Learn List” is perpetually changing because every one in our system adds to or subtracts from that list every single day. Keepers have so much we want to learn about being patient people. We have so much we want to learn about keepers being “thicker skinned” without giving up our abilities to empathize and care about others. Keepers have so much we want to learn about giving from our hearts while still being able to set up reasonable boundaries that keep everyone safe. We have so much to learn about feeling our own humility while taking pride in our work. And we are wanting to learn all we can about having courage and living with integrity even about being comfortable with our own personal differences from other people. So, we look at our list and watch it change from day to day, knowing that our learning about even our internal world is something we will be doing for the rest of our lives.

Whenever keepers do something like write a blog, we all know that we only have the right to speak for ourselves and from our own experiences. We can only write about what works for us or about how our system perceives things because what works for keepers may well not work for another system of alters. We can only write from our perspective because our view of the world is completely unique as is everyone’s. But writing our blog about whatever is on our mind’s–whether it be keepers doing some soul searching on the issue of integration or about needing to set a boundary or two or even about our sense of loss in this situation or that one–keepers are writing mainly to sort out our own thoughts and feelings so that we can walk away from what we have written feeling like we have learned a thing or two about our own lives and our own ways of functioning on this earth. After all, with keepers having so much left to still learn, we know we have absolutely no right to be putting our beliefs out there in the form of advice to any other human being.

As keepers move along with our healing journey, the one thing we all know is that keepers are still learning at a phenomenal rate. Strange as it may seem, we truly hope that is always true of our system because learning the big things like how to manage and update our own website is just as thrilling as learning how to be just a little more patient as we move from day to day. For keepers, one of the greatest blessings we have been given is the realization that there is soooooooooooo much left for us to learn and that remaining open to learning new things even at our age is the greatest adventure life could ever take us on.

peace and blessings,

keepers