***IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO DEFEAT AN ENEMY THAT HAS OUTPOSTS IN ONE’S MIND*** author unkown

This coming Monday will be the one year anniversary of keepers testifying in court against our former therapist.  Keepers are all thankful that the hearing came about when it did because the timing was perfect for us.  We had to work very hard at getting strong enough to do what we had to do but, somehow, we not only managed to get through it but the Asst. Attorney General told us keepers did an excellent job of testifying.  We are glad for that because in today–keepers would be completely unable to do what we did so well just a year ago.

Just a few days ago, our JM called the State Licensing Bureau to find out if any decision has been made yet on the disciplinary action that will be taken against our former therapist.  JM was told that the committee is still working on it and keepers will hear via snail mail in the near future.  He sees this as just part of way it works and lets it go at that.  Keepers, however, feel devastated because a year is a very long and precious amount of time for us–especially since our former therapist literally stole 17 years of our lives from us.  We do not want to give him another moment of the life we have left but seem unable to stop it until our case against him is final in every way.  I think that is largely because keepers still feel so much like his victims–as state of being that will only fade away once we know he is being taken to task for the harm he has done.

Over the last few years, many people have worked to get keepers to face the truth of what our former therapist did to us.  We worked extensively with a therapist who was convinced he had brainwashed our system.  Other professionals have spoken with us about his pure genius in employing mind control with keepers.  And even the State of Missouri has spoken with us at length about the mind games he was continue playing with keepers while he was our therapist of record.  For years, now, keepers have been listening to all of this but allowing it remain somehow distant and far away from who we were trying to become.  However, the longer it takes for the disciplinary action to come in the more we realize that keepers will never be free of this man because he is an enemy who has established outposts in our mind.

For a long time now keepers lives have been full of warnings about our former therapist.  Our insurance company warned us that this man would do anything he could to harm keepers.  Therapists warned us that this man knows the inner workings of keepers so well that he can get at us without ever coming into direct contact with us.  Even those involved with our case against him have told us to be very careful of this man for years to come.  The longer keepers have to sit and wait for completion, the more these warnings seem to be coming to life for us.

In many ways, keepers were far too trusting while working with our former therapist.  Not only does he know keepers far better than anyone else ever has but we gave him many portholes to us through our family members.  This man acted as therapist of record for each of our two daughters (at different times) which he promised us was a good thing.  What it actually turned out to be, though, was him using our girls as vessels through which he could bring us the greatest harm.  But, keepers have to take responsibility for that because we trusted his words when we really should have been smarter than that.

One thing everyone has told us is that our former therapist wanted keepers to stay sick so badly that he was sabotaging our healing in every way possible.  Somehow, keepers got the idea that since he was no longer involved in our lives, it would no longer matter to him if we got on our healing path and maintained a thriving way of life.  Keepers see no reason why it should matter to him now how keepers are doing in any way.  Still, his hand is at work sabotaging us in many ways.

For us, I think the proof of how dangerous our former therapist is seen as being was when our local police were watching for him to show up here the day it became public that he was found guilty on five counts in our case.  I think the fact that this man’s own professional peers call him a true sociopath speaks volumes about the truth of what keepers are now dealing with.

The truth is that 2007 has been an extremely painful year for keepers.  We do know that our former therapist had nothing to do with things like our website being stagnant for those twelve months or with several of the things that have happened.  But he did know exactly how to bring keepers to our knees and cause us to put thriving on the back burner for a while.  He knew where to hit us and how to hit us where it would do the most damage which he did quite successfully last April.  By July, his mind games had truly brought keepers to our knees and left us feeling like the victims we had always been.  Everyone agrees that he was the only one with the knowledge and dishonesty to carry off what happened to us with such perfect timing and ingenious planning.

Keepers are trying hard now to come back from all that has happened.  We are finding that horribly difficult, though.  Each day, we hope and pray that letter telling us the disciplinary action will arrive in our mailbox.  We feel like bad people because we truly hope they throw the book at him.  But just knowing the final action taken will give keepers the opportunity to shut the book on all of this and try to return to our thriving status which we feel like we deserve now.

Even though it has been a full year since keepers testified, this is all still a waiting game.  One that is costing keepers dearly on an emotional level.  That letter did not come today.  Perhaps, tomorrow.

peace and blessings,’

keepers