Recently, little keepers have been suffering badly enough to be unable to stay in today. I guess big keepers were not paying enough attention because we did not see them getting sucked back into that world–where they used to live–until it was too late for bigs to prevent it from happening. Once we realized that we had lost our littles, big keepers were very upset because we know what an awful place yesteryear is for our little keepers. We knew that our littles must have felt just terrible in the today to even allow themselves to get sucked backward. But keepers also thought that there was little we could do to bring our littles back to the safety of today.

Big keepers are ashamed to say that it was not us at all who brought our little keepers back home to the safety of today. It was little alters in other systems who reached out and let little keepers know that they are wanted in today and that nothing at all in today could be as bad as things were in the places littles had chosen to return to. As keepers look back on these last several days, what we see is an amazing banding together of little alters who found the courage to reach out to little keepers and help bring them back to where they belong.

Several nights ago, three little alters in a system sent an email to our little keepers and asked that big keepers read it out loud every day until our littles came home. These beautiful sweet little alters found the courage to put part of their story in that email by telling our littles how it felt to them when they went back to yesteryear not long ago. These three littles let our little keepers know that the NOW is always so much better than what once was. And these three little alters let our little keepers know that they are a part of a family where little ones are loved and cared about. The email from these littles was so touching that it made big keepers cry but our John Michael sat down each of two nights and read this email out loud for our little keepers to hear. All keepers want to thank these three little alters in another system and tell them that they were a huge help in bringing out little keepers home to today. Thank you Abigail and Jewel and Hannah for all you did to help our little keepers.

Then, there was the little alter who had given us KNOTS ON A COUNTING ROPE. She is from a different system entirely but did such huge things that helped little keepers come back to the safety of today. I doubt if Sarah had any idea how much she was helping little keepers but we have no doubt that she did. Both through Sarah’s favorite story book and her own ways of coping she showed our little keepers that the NOW is a place where little alters are always better off. Thank you, Sarah, for helping our little keepers find the courage to come back home to big keepers and John Michael.

Over the last year, keepers have watched a unity develop among multiples all over the world. We seem to have become a community that gives each one of us what we have never had before–people who notice how we are doing and who worry when things just do not seem right and who reach out a helping hand whenever necessary. Keepers have tried to do these things consistently for our friends who live in multiplicity and our friends out there have consistently done this for keepers over the last year. But, the camaraderie that has developed and grown strong has appeared to be among adult alters while each of us were keeping our littles very safe and protected–which is a good thing because our littles deserve to feel safe in this world.

But what keepers believe now is that our little alters have been peeking out and watching what was going on in these wonderful new relationships. Keepers think that these little alters are beginning to band together in a way only they can. As much as little alters have been hurt–they are beginning to reach out to each other and help one another when the going gets tough. Our little alters share their stories with other littles–in a way that only they can. Our little alters share their infinite wisdom with other little alters when another little needs to hear their truth. Our little alters are somehow banding together and reaching out in a way keepers thought would never be possible.

In keepers world, the only one who ever accepted and loved our little alters was our John Michael. That left little keepers with a sense of aloneness that they could never break. Our littles had trusted our external children to always be their friends only to get kicked in the gut when that suited our external children. Our little keepers trusted our former therapist for 17 years and never saw that he was doing all he could to keep them sick. In fact, little keepers have always lived with a sense of isolation that only another multiple could possibly understand. These last four months have magnified our littles feelings of being rejected by the world even more.

The truth of the matter will always be that it was not big keepers who helped our littles come back to the NOW. It was not even our John Michael who could reach them and let them know that today is much better than yesterday. It was little alters in the systems of others who found the courage and strength to reach out and show true compassion to our little keepers. It was those little alters who had the ability to bring our little keepers home.

Keepers first began KEEPERSKORNER because we believed that those who live in multiplicity are the most inspirational people on earth. Through all multiples have gone through, we somehow managed to protect our loving hearts and bring them into today with us. That adult alters are kind and caring with others is a remarkable phenomenon because it means a part of us was not destroyed by our abuse. That little alters could come together are help each other through the bad times (in a way that no grown up alter could ever fully understand) has to be one of God’s greatest miracles.

Thank you little alters all over the world. Thank you so much for being you. You have so many wonderful things inside of you. Things like strength and courage and wisdom and kindness and compassion. Each and every little alter on this earth is so very precious and means so very much to keepers.

peace and blessings,

keepers

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