Today is one of those days when the words are just not coming together in a way that would make sense to anyone.  Not because keepers have nothing to say or because we are caught up in some kind of confusion.  In fact, neither one of these is the least bit true.  Our problem seems to be that too many ideas are spinning around and too many alters want their turn to speak.  So, I may write a paragraph and someone else comes out to veer off in his/her own direction.  And so on and so forth until an alter comes to the surface to delete a blog that has not one real direction and makes not the least bit of sense.

The truth is that summer here in St. Louis can be a miserable experience.  The older keepers get, the more we see the truth of this.  We always wait as long as we can to turn on our air conditioner.  We hate turning it on because it means keeping the doors and windows shut which makes keepers feel very shut off from the world.  We have no idea why it is but we feel more shut off when the air is on during summer than we do when the heat is on during winter.  Maybe that is because keepers are much more willing to set foot outside in the bitter cold than in the weight of summer humidity around here.  Besides which, the weather men are saying the humidity is extreme this year which is saying a lot for this area since we are known for high humidity during the summer months.  Anyway, with the air conditioning on, keepers are much more likely to deal with our own autonomy and our loneliness than we do at any other time of the year.  It takes some adjusting for keepers to get past things and move along with business as normal here at KEEPERSKORNER.  We always manage to do it but it takes us a few days to find the right balance for our system to maintain a positive outlook on things.

At this time of year, keepers rely much more on our waterfalls and aromatherapy and favorite cds to create a soothing environment for us.  We know that we do better when we control the environment around us by choosing smells and sounds as we move through our days.  We also become more committed to our yoga and meditation practices as a means of keeping ourselfs in balance and clear headed.  This is important to us because the more clear headed we are the better we live our mindful and present way of life.  I guess this way of life might be called living in the moment.  For us, it is the best way to be.  Even though our moments may be lonely at times, they are so much better than they used to be.  And worrying about what will come is something keepers have learned to never do.  The future is something that has to take care of itself because it is way too much for keepers to worry about.

Before long, our John Michael will be coming in the door with dinner in hand.  Tonight, we are having sub sandwiches from a local restaurant.  We chose these because time for supper is short tonight.  After we eat and catch up on each others days, our work here at KEEPERSKORNER will continue through much of the night.  There is a lot to do for KEEPERSKORNER this evening.  But it really is funny because when keepers are doing what we love the time passes quickly and in hindsight we see that we have accomplished an awful lot in just a few short hours.  Thus, when midnight rolls around and we crawl into bed, keepers have some sense of satisfaction from having done a good job for KEEPERSKORNER that day.  That sense of being satisfied in one way or another with our own performance is what keeps us going–even under the worst working conditions at times.

Keepers are hoping to spend some time at our easel tonight.  We have not done that in days.  Although we are back to doing our artwork–we still find it a real struggle at times.  But we do make some progress which is what spurs us to keep on trying.  I still can not explain why our artwork has become such a challenge for us when it is also a source of tranquility for keepers.  I just know that is has become a sense of peace that keepers value even more because it is so difficult for us to maintain.

Well ,the phone is ringing so I had better go.

peace and blessings,

keepers