It looks like things are beginning to get back to normal here at KEEPERSKORNER. People are pulling together to help us with our resource work for a fellow friend who lives in multiplicity. Our website is ready to begin moving forward, which feels very exciting for all keepers. Soon, new pieces will be up in our GUEST GALLERY as well as our other galleries. We are beginning to close in on getting the changes we need made to our site. Our toll free number (1.888.752.9070) has been quite active all along but is now bringing us new friends who live in multiplicity and just need to know someone really does care and, best of all, we at KEEPERSKORNER are experiencing the excitement of beginning again and finding ourselves on a whole level in terms of strength and unity.

Our system of alters has been feeling very bad lately. We have been on a downward spiral and could find no way to pull ourselves back into balance. In fact, something inside of us had given up on our yoga and our art work and our dream of KEEPERSKORNER. COM continuing to be of help to other multiples and other abuse survivors. The truth is that when keepers get to feeling so poorly, we completely forget how much hope there is in our lives and we fail to notice the love that surrounds us in today. Only as we begin to pull out of our own personal funk do we realize that the world we live in now is a very special place that is full of wonderful people.

Keepers know that beginning again with KEEPERSKORNER means that something will have changed for the better and and we will find even more happiness in what we do than ever before. The last couple of months have left keepers feeling like we were losing all that we had worked so hard to establish. Now, we understand why we had to go through that for so long. Keepers had to know in our hearts how very precious KEEPERSKORNER is to us and how very much it means for us to wake up each morning having a sense of being committed to something we see as worthwhile. Only by going through a period of of grieving the loss of our ministry here at KEEPERSKORNER could we refocus on how precious this is to all keepers. Now, we can get back to work with a whole new appreciation for the gift we have been given through our website.

Just yesterday, keepers would have said that our time of doing KEEPERSKORNER on the net had come to an end. Our internal dialog had turned to figuring out how we could continue KEEPERSKORNER in a different way that did not depend on cyberspace to carry the word out to the world for us. But, then, this morning we woke up to a brighter and happier world where we know that we are still on the right path by working through our website.

Keepers know that–for us– the real killer in this world is our sense of aloneness. Our sense of complete aloneness does not have to be our reality in today for the truth of it to swallow keepers up. Our feelings of aloneness can erupt from the years we spent looking into therapists eyes only to see that we had been labeled freaks by the “experts” on the human psyche. It could come from all of our memories of moments when people let us know that there is no understanding of why keepers are so sensitive to how people treat us. Or maybe it just simply comes from the constant demeaning and rejection that is ours any time we have contact with a family member. Keepers really have no idea. All we know is that the aloneness is the killer for our system.

Last night was a night when our toll free number (1.888.752.9070) was very busy. In fact, we were splitting things up between the toll free number and IMing with people who just needed a friend to chat with. The one thing everyone we spoke to had in common was the fact that each felt very alone and like no one wanted to bother with them. The more we were talking with people, the more keepers knew that giving up on KEEPERSKORNER was not even an option because, if nothing else, we could let others know that someone does really care and will hang in there with them.

This seems like a very good time to tell you what we do on our toll free line. Sometimes, therapists contact KEEPERSKORNER when said therapist is going on vacation. We are just simply asked to maintain contact with the multiple until the therapist returns. Others have clients who are given things like affirmations or letters from their therapists or something else that the multiple is supposed to read daily. KEEPERSKORNER comes into play because when we make our daily contact with that multiple, we listen as she reads the affirmations or whatever. Keepers might comment on how true the words are but little more than that is said.

In truth, keepers have learned a great deal by talking on our toll free number. We have spoken with many fellow artists which has been inspiring–to say the least–for us. We have learned a lot about horses because one of our phone friends owns a horse. We spend many hours talking about our pets. Much of those conversations focus on kitty cats but dogs do come up with their owners quite a bit as well. We have learned many things about little alters like which stories they love to hear and what each one’s favorite color is. Keepers have learned a lot about Oragami and Soduku puzzles and how little girls bedrooms are being decorated in today. We have had phone calls where someone just wanted to share good news from her life. We have had phone calls from littles who were just feeling sad or alone and needed to hear a friendly voice. We have had many discussions about this food or that food. How to make it or how it tastes are what foods are someone’s favorites.

Yes, our phone conversations sometimes go deeper than this. We have had talks about body memories. We have spoken about the struggles of living in multiplicity. Too many hours have been spent listening to someone in a system telling us how that system is getting what they deserve and how their abuse was somehow their fault. Keepers have been asked a million questions about our multiplicity and we try to answer each question honestly while keeping the conversation in a very safe mode.

More and more, keepers are hearing and experiencing what awesome human beings multiples really are. Our respect for those who live in multiplicity grows every single day. We spend a lot of time telling other multiples that we believe they deserve to be happy and to feel free. We spend much time talking about how keepers learned that our abuse was in no way our faults and that this is true for other abuse survivors as well.

Keepers have gotten to know another Nana who is much like us and we have gotten to know computer experts that have helped us so much and we have gotten to know someone who has only been diagnosed for a year and another system that is struggling half way around the world and we have learned a lot about illnesses like Fibro and Lupus and MS. Getting to understand these illnesses has helped keepers because we know people in our actual world who suffer these same afflictions and our compassion for them has grown as we have come to comprehend what they are having to endure.

Anyway, KEEPERSKORNER is actively beginning again with work on the site being done and our passion for blogging coming back and our thriving through yoga having fallen back into place. Now, all keepers have to do is get back to our easel and our art work. Someone suggested we begin by trying to do an abstract where there are no rules. We have never done this before but it sounds like a very good place for us to begin again as artists.

peace and blessings,

keepers