***DON’T GIVE UP 5 MINUTES BEFORE YOUR MIRACLE HAPPENS***

Keepers believe, very strongly, in things like miracles and even Divine Intervention. If nothing else, we know that these things are bestowed on others with intense regularity. We know that because keepers have sat on the sidelines of life and watched as others have received their own personal miracles and as Divine Intervention turned their lives around. Keepers know, too, that we have been sent some very special miracles during our time on this earth. We have a strong sense of that but not clear memories of our miracles right now. You see, when keepers are doing well and feeling strong, we are able to look at our lives and see the miracles that have come our way. But, when keepers are doing  not so well and are hurting pretty badly–our vision seems to cloud and we can sense our miracles but seeing them clearly feels way beyond our abilities. The same goes for the Divine Intervention that has occurred for us over our years on this earth.

In times like these (when hurt and frustration seems to be keepers foundation) we know that following our 5 MINUTE RULE is simply a matter of keepers having blind faith and trusting what feels so completely untrustable to us. In fact, the words DON’T GIVE UP 5 MINUTES BEFORE OUR MIRACLE HAPPENS becomes our Mantra that we repeat to ourselfs over and over again throughout any given day. Yes, the memories of keepers miracles having happened seems distant and vague–unclear in every way. But somewhere inside of us is the knowledge that God has indeed sent us many miracles over the years and the blind faith to simply know that God is still at work in our lives–giving us the constant hope that our miracle is only 5 minutes away even as I type.

Keepers last therapist was a woman who made fun of keepers for believing so strongly in both miracles and Divine Intervention. She told us our beliefs were nothing more than our magical thinking and totally unrealistic because we had never done anything to deserve things like miracles or for God to intervene on our behalf in any way. Mostly, keepers have laid this therapists words to rest because we simply know that there have always been forces much greater than keepers at work in our lives. But when doubt and discouragement overwhelm our system–we do revisit this woman’s words and wonder (for a moment or two) if she was right about us and our magical thinking.

But someone in our system is ever present to remind keepers that miracles do not have to always be these huge life transforming moments when all that is wrong becomes ok again. Nor does Divine Intervention always have to be so profound that it is easily recognizable. Sometimes, the miracles can be so small that they seem to buy us only moments of relief while we hang on for the next five minutes of our rule. The Divine Intervention can be so subtle that keepers do not even see that it is occuring. In hindsight, keepers are good at seeing these things as they occur but as we move through our difficult times, we barely notice they are being sent to us.

The God that keepers grew up knowing and believing in would never have sent us even the smallest miracle. We learned only of a wrathful God who always saw keepers as unworthy and who punished us far more than helped us. That God carried around a tally sheet where He kept track of every sin keepers had to pay for. One column was our Venial Sins that we seemed to commit continually. Another column was our Mortal Sins that were ever eating away at our soul. On Saturday afternoon, keepers would confess our sins to the priest. On Sunday morning we would hear in Church how unworthy we were and how God would get us for our sins because we could never truly be forgiven. This is the God that keepers have known most of our lives. As strange as it may sound, keepers fully believed in miracles even as we were believing in a God that others taught us would only bring us punishment and suffering on this earth. In today, keepers know that we must have been receiving both miracles and Divine Intervention throughout our childhood because we made it through our abusive years when we really should not have.

right now, keepers are going through a time when it truly feels like God has not only forgotten us but forsaken us in every way. When these feelings begin to overtake our system, there are things we do to remind ourselfs how very untrue our feelings are in that particular moment. We sit and read FOOTPRINTS time and time again so that keepers remember God is at work in our lives–even when we can not feel that Divine Presence. FOOTPRINTS always reminds keepers that God is constantly helping us carry the heavy load of our multiplicity. Then our sense of gratitude once more overtakes our feelings of despair so that keepers can continue abiding by our 5 MINUTE RULE.

After reading FOOTPRINTS, keepers turn to our WALL OF WONDERFUL here in our studio. Our wall is much more personal than a poem written on a poster so this is our last stop in making ourselves regain faith. We feel refreshed when we pause to look at the faces of all the wonderful people in our lives now. We feel reinspired because something inside of us knows that each and every beautiful face is truly a miracle that has been sent to keepers.

Keepers may be fools for falling back on blind faith when we have nothing else. After all, keepers are not superficial thinkers in any way. But keeper’s lives have always had points where our thoughts feel worthless and our feelings seem nothing more than destructive which leaves us in a position where all we have is blind faith to see us through. As strange as it may seem, keepers times of greatest growth are when we have only blind faith to get us through.

Keepers are hanging on this five minutes because our miracle may be just around the corner. After that, we will hang on the next five minutes and the next and the next and the next and the next and…………………………………………………………..because we know our miracle will come in the right form and at the right time as long as we keep on believing with all of our hearts.

peace and blessings to each of you,

magical thinker